However, it was a beautiful and relaxing day.
R.I.P. my beloved Chucks.
I didn’t notice at first. Not before this morning, when I wanted to go on a photo walk. Walking toward the front door, I heard a strange sound. Like chewing gum would stick between the sole and the floor. Then I recognized with terror the big hole gaping in the left shoe. So broken, inside and outside, impossible to repair. No way to save them. I must confess, I almost shed a tear.
Over some old worn out shoes – I know, it’s stupid, but I love these shoes. Carry would understand: “These shoes pinch my feet, but I love them.” Although she would never said that about these kind of shoes: chucks.
I bought them in 2007 after the end of a bad relationship and they always felt for me like a piece of freedom. They were my ‘feel good‘ shoes. My adventure boots. My ‘I can go anywhere‘ red shoes.
They were special, because of the turquoise and red lotus pattern. Always got much attention. Yes, they were worn out, but they were chucks, they had to look like this. Worn, dirty, broken on parts, but still walkable.
I wore them when I traveled: through Greece, Denmark, Swiss, an entire weekend in Paris till my leg hurt, when I went on photography trips through the city or on bicycle tours through the neighborhood and half of Germany. While studying in Bonn I wore them almost every day.
This is still one of my favorite shots: sitting with my beloved chucks on a meadow on a late sunny afternoon, drinking coffee and watching the time and people go by down in the city.
Ten years they were a part of me, beloved, worn so often, together we walked so far, went on so many adventures…
I will miss them. My beloved chucks.
There are those days you are motivated from start and work your ass off, till there’s no work hours left. And then there are the other days, when you just can’t get yourself to start working effectively. Your brain simply doesn’t want to cooperate with you. You beg, you scream at your brain to give you just one idea, that makes the whole project work. But no, your thoughts are only circling around the same old, dull ideas…
At the end of the work day you give up. I give up. No inspiration, no motivation, just the hope that on Monday all will be better and that the brain is relaxed, open to new ideas.
The weekend is to begin. Time for play. Time for new things. Time for fun and rest. Time for beautiful inspiration like the magical winter photos by Junkaholique, that are breathtaking, and my favorite shot from today. Taken while working at home office and playing with my new app Instant. Polaroid is magic. I’m in love.
When I searchend my blog for my last monthly review, I was somehow shocked finding it in December 2014. The last year was really a slow one on the blog, but my life was filled with events and mile long to do lists. Today I want to bring back the monthly review, because I miss it. It’s a moment for me to pause and reflect on the month behind me, that otherwise would fly by so fast, unrecognized. So without further ado…
Trying to be present and simply enjoy the summer and the mostly free time after this eventful, busy year.
Simplifying our home is one step closer to a medium minimalism. It’s still a lot of stuff and my fingers are prickling, because they want to do more, get rid of more stuff. But at the moment I’m happy how far I’ve come and how good it feels.
Sorting through my photos and purging at least half of it or better two third. It’s a work in progess. But step by step or better byte by byte I’m keeping on going forward and sorting through every folder and deleting gigabytes of pictures.
Finally wrote all ‘thank you’ notes for all our wedding guests and beyond. It took me several hours with help of my husband, but now they are finally shipped.
Changing rapidly between cold and much too hot. One day I have to wear a sweater, the other day I’m dying of heat while only wearing a thin shirt. So looking forward to a moderate autumn.
For a few weeks I tried to take every day another online course on those terrific online platforms Skillshare and Creativebug. It was amazing. In only 15 to 30 minutes every day I lerned so much, from cocking to painting to programming a website.
While editing the photos of our wedding, I lerned a lot about Lightroom and all those little options you can change and that can make an image really pop.
My new favorite TV serie, although a little older, is ‘Lie to me’. Absolutely fascinating lerning about micro expressions and unconscious human behaviour.
I’m over the top inspired by Flora Bowley’s course ‘Intuitive Painting” on Creativebug. There was so much to lern and try. It was like magic on a canvas.
Potsdam is not that far away from Berlin and always worth a visit. Beautiful, charming city with a lot of green and impressive architecture.
Pokemon is fun, even if you don’t play it actively. My husband (still getting used to not calling him my boyfriend anymore) plays it enthusiasticly, so we went on some walks to get him some new Pokemons. I used the time for taking photos or when we stayed at one place for longer, catching up on my reading. So fun & a perfect match!
Looking forward to an eventful, travelsome September.
Happy New Year, y’all!
Did you party into the new year? We sure did. I wore my Yes-shirt, in hope for a good, positive year to come.
I’m reading “Year of Yes” by Shonda Rhimes at the moment and loving it. The book speaks to me. It empowers me to speak up, stand up for myself, and just be me. So it had to be the Yes-shirt for New Year’s eve naturally. Yes to this year. Yes to thinking positive. Yes to getting better. Yes to life. Yes to progress. Yes to us and our wedding. Yes to this exciting, challenging new year.
I wish you all the best for 2016!
Scrambled eggs. Parties. Engagement. Fireworks. Traveling. Coffee with a little bit of milk. No gluten. No sugar. No milk. Tomatoes. Bacon, lots of bacon. Sweet potatoes, my new favorite. Beef and vegetables. Less fish. Anxiety attacks. Organization. Planning. Panic. Afraid. Weight gain. Weight loss. Back to normal. No motivation. Grey. Hormones. Thyroid hypofunction. Hashimoto thyreoditis. Blood tests. Paper flowers. Dancing. Too emotional. No emotions. Lerning. Growing. Changing work situation. Reading, book after book, blogs, magazines. Simplify. Zero waste attempts. Wedding dress. Location, location, location. Fear. Guest list. Insecurity. Creativity. Knitting. Crocheting. Cooking. Paleo food. New car. Weddings. Vacation with friends. The right questions. Doctors. No information. Blogging again. Photo contests. Internship. Movie cutting. Photo walks. Good times with godchildren, Funny evenings with friends. Gifts. A more simple life. iMac. Project Life. Tidy. Stress. Hot summer. Warm winter. No Christmas mood. Sad, negative colleagues. Overwhelmed. Overload. Thousands of photos. Too much. Seven scarves. The sea. Hot spiced wine. Photo sorting evenings. Tears. Grüne Woche. Schnapps. Netflix. Play station games. Game night. Quiet, not so much. Hamlet. Questions. Pressure. Birthday parties. Calendar. Less is more. Cleaning. Bad sleep. Cough. New pictures on the wall. Instagram. Black, white, gold. All the colors, again. Bad start. Big events. Lots of events. Journaling. Less art journaling, more writing. No time. Nuts. Tea attempt failed. Seven minutes. Weight watchers. Be open. Share. Almost black nail polish. Progress. Patience. Change.
In 2012 Susannah Conway posted „wish I may“ on the 12.12.12 as a wishing day. I loved this idea and wrote my own post a day later. Although it’s no wishing day officially, it’s a wonderful idea to formulate wishes for the new year and beyond as kind of reflection to the past year.
I wish for a lot of energy. I wish for a happy, fun wedding. I wish for funny hours with my goddaughters. I wish for health for my family and friends. I wish for quite hours just with me and myself. I wish for a healthy hormone level as opposite to symptoms of Hashimoto Thyreoiditis. I wish for many hours of uninterrupted, inspiring crafting. I wish for a simple life. I wish for a stress-free wedding preparation. I wish for challenges that help me lern and grow. I wish for a money reserve. I wish for more city adventures in Berlin. I wish for new creative projects. I wish for romantic times with my man. I wish for a house of our own. I wish for time to journal and blog. I wish for our biggest wish to come true. I wish for travel adventures. I wish for playing and cuddling a lot with the cats. I wish for healthy and yummy food. I wish for wonderful hours with our friends and families. I wish for a positive mind. I wish for a lot of good times in 2016.
What are you wishing for?
So many events, so much happened, so much to remember…
This summer was filled to the brim with dates and meetings and events. From June to the middle of September we hadn’t had one free weekend without a date. Full of life: beautiful, fun and stuffed with excitement. Full of people, places and memories. I want to remember:
one new car
two weeks of vacation: one of them with a couple of friends, one filled with traveling and visiting friends and family
10 cities visited
countless hours in our car on the road
2 birthday parties (one was our own)
our own birthdays, just three days apart
more than 10.000 photos
100 people met, some new, some old
one big health issue
several big events that took our breath away and made us happy
What a summer!
This is the last post of my ‚one little word‘ for 2015. I loved these posts, because they helped me focus on my monthly goals and on the good stuff that was ahead of me. All the more I’m sad, that I didn’t had the energy to write the posts for August till November. Maybe I’ll be doing them just for myself, so the series is complete.
I’m sure, that I’ll be doing something similar next year, maybe a little altered. It was like a guideline for me this year, I could follow along so easily. The words I chose worked almost every month. At the start I gave it a good thought, what my usual yearly rhythm looks like and which events waited for me every month.
Therefore this month will be all about ‘preparing‘. What better word to choose for this time of year ahead of Christmas and a new exciting year:
Prepare our home for December with pretty and comfy decoration.
Prepare myself for the somehow stressful days of Christmas and plan moments/things to do to relax in between.
Prepare gifts early for all beloved ones.
Prepare the new year, set goals and review the old year: the good, the bad and the ugly.
Prepare the December Daily album with embellishments and more and start filling it every other day with photos and journaling.
Prepare regularly food to take with.
Prepare a bucket list for December like f.e. which Christmas movies to watch.
Have a wonderful Christmas time!
be open – prepare & share